Eric Pride has left the community in the wake of pro-consent movements, stating that we have started tearing each other apart instead of standing by each other. I’m sad that he is not who I thought he was. This post is part of the Eek! series. I am ridiculously happy today. But it takes a … Continue reading Eek!
This post is part of the Is It Bad for Me? series. You may wish to begin with Part 1. As you know, a few weeks ago I was frightened by my kink. I already knew I had been eroticising my depression last year – we emotional masochists are capable of amazing feats – but now I wondered if I had … Continue reading Abject Submission 3: Only the Gift
Irregular updates from now on. And yes, that’s my calligraphy. You guys are amazing! Support came from everywhere – BDSM blogging friends, Blogging 201 classmates, WordPress staff and HostGator staff. I got scared after my last post, because Ferns alerted me to one of her old posts on the Domme Chronicles. It seems that last year … Continue reading Not Censored. Thank You Everyone!
I am jumping up and down for joy. I just lost all the weight I gained from depression last year! It was more than ten percent of my body weight, and I gained it in one year flat. The doctor was really worried because my family develops diabetes when we’re overweight. So I tried to … Continue reading Bouncing Back from Depression
This post is Part 1 of the Is It Bad for Me? series. I am shaken. So far, all the the shame and guilt you’ve seen in this blog should really have been in the past tense. I knew people needed to hear my stories, so I told them, but after sixteen years you do get … Continue reading Abject Submission 1: Is it bad for me?
You know the way you can hate yourself after an extreme scene? Well, Shakespeare did too. And, of course, he describes it better than anyone. Sonnet 129 Th’ expense of spirit in a waste of shame Is lust in action; and till action, lust Is perjured, murd’rous, bloody, full of blame, Savage, extreme, rude, cruel, … Continue reading Shakespeare Needs Aftercare
My friends and I were not brought up to discuss sex, and so kink does not come up in conversation. But this has changed a little since I wrote my coming-out letter, because I have now come out to five more friends and one more brother (which is enough for now). As I expected, everyone was supportive. But … Continue reading Coming Out: The Sequel
Review of website: CollarSpace.com CollarMe.com (kinky personals). The morning after I signed up at CollarMe.com, I happened to start daydreaming about one of my favourite books, and a bolt of arousal shot through me. Normally this would not have been such a surprise, but I had believed I was dead between the legs due to … Continue reading Review: CollarMe.com and My Off Switch
