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Blonde girl bowing

Protocols. I Want.

Blonde girl bowing

I love protocols. Do you want me to call you sir? Yes sir! (And apologies for the non-inclusive language, ma’am!) Do you want me on the floor? Prod me till I get the position right, please? Do you want me to heel you, or forget the word ‘but’, or owe every morsel of food to […]

Fire-eater

Pain Is a Battering Bastard … And More (Part 2)

Fire-eater

To recap part 1 of this post: (1) Chronic pain can make even a masochist feel trapped in her body. (2) It’s just like the way my ex-dom and I felt locked in a miserable relationship. I may even have gotten all of my mixed metaphors into this tweet: I am SO GRATEFUL I’m finally […]

Hand clutching fence

Pain Is a Battering Bastard … And More (Part 1)

Hand clutching fence

Once upon a time my dom was nursing me through some truly horrific cramps. I was not very lucid. A particularly vicious cramp took me by surprise, and I found myself whimpering our safeword. I will never forget the look on his face. To cheer us both up, he told me that I had a […]

A fiery background seen through a heart shape

Gasp, Shake, Thank You

A fiery background seen through a heart shape

This post is about me being hurt and frightened. Intensely. It made me very happy. But if it might bother you, please feel free to have some utterly misnamed Good Clean Fun instead. Negotiation: He leans back against the pillows. I perch opposite, bolt upright. It feels like lying every time I don’t call him […]

Waiter pouring wine

Am I Just Selfish? Service Versus Control

Waiter pouring wine

When I first found out about service subs, I was politely un­compre­hend­ing. No sex, no sensation, no humiliation even, why bother? Surely it would be less trouble to go to a nice restaurant and get served/hired? More authentic, too. Over time my confusion changed into awe and guilt. Probably because I tried to convert a […]

Gingerbread man lowering another gingerbread man into toaster

Diabolical Genius, or I Love Interrogation

Gingerbread man lowering another gingerbread man into toaster

This post is part of the Eek! series. Also an e[lust] top three pick! Eric Pride is the devil. And a prince of tact. Um. Let me backtrack. I recently volunteered to help with Eric Pride’s interrogation class. I know nothing about interrogation, but this was not a problem, because I was to be the […]

Hands making a heart around baby feet

Abject Submission 3: Only the Gift

Hands making a heart around baby feet

This post is part of the Is It Bad for Me? series. You may wish to begin with Part 1. As you know, a few weeks ago I was frightened by my kink. I already knew I had been eroticising my depression last year – we emotional masochists are capable of amazing feats – but now I wondered if I had […]

Statue of naked supine woman and winged, clawed demon crouched on her

Abject Submission 2: Lit Survey

Statue of naked supine woman and winged, clawed demon crouched on her

This post is part of the Is It Bad for Me? series. You may wish to begin with Part 1. As you know, I have started to worry whether my kink of abject submission is really about self-injury. Fiction proved to be such a good window into my fears that I decided to look harder at […]